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Because when I wake up I will be POAS for the first time in a loooooong time.  I am almost terrified though for many reasons.  I haven't been keeping track of my cycles for who knows how long now (over 2 years I believe) but I had an idea of when AF was last and that would put me at AT LEAST day 35.   My cycles used to be 29-33 days with the rare 35 days.  I have been having very, very mild cramping and I keep going to check and nothing for the past 3 days.  I remember being so disappointed and hurt month by month at all those negative HPT's.  Looking back on that of course it was a good thing that never did happen but this guy, he's a good one, a good man and I'd love to be the mother of his child, although now may not be the right time for us just maybe God has decided it indeed is the right time.  We'll see. This could VERY WELL be stress from things that have happened recently but I would not turn down a miracle from god at any time.  It makes me chuckle a little to think I had to have DP hide the tests we bought lastnight because i'll reluctantly admit I still do have a POAS addiction lol.