I think I will get a puppy instead....
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laurasuz |
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Well, it looks like I'll be joining this board ...again. Funny (not) this time last year the exact same thing happened to me: I found out that I was pg and was thrilled! Turned out, after many weeks of struggling, it was a blighted ovum. Fast forward one year, and we are in the same boat again. My numbers were doing great, the first u/s looked fantastic ...and now at 6 weeks we have a great big sac, a nice corpus luteum ...and not much in in the sac. My doc said that her u/s machine is old and that she's not totally giving up hope yet, but I think I know what the answer will be. I go back on Monday for another u/s if I don't pass the sac this weekend. My symptoms are the same. I started off with brown spotting (that muddy stuff) and it went away. Then it came back with some red streaks in it. Then it went away. Then it came back as red blood last night ...and now it went away ...nothing. 2 blighted ovums in a row?! My gosh, what have I done to deserve this torture? We were so sure that this one was going to be a keeper. We have tried for two years to have a baby, spent thousands of dollars, etc. I was so sure that I ordered a whole wardrobe of maternity clothes - they should arrive next week and baby clothes too. I am so crushed. I guess I know that time will heal all wounds, but it just sucks meanwhile.
I think I will get a puppy instead.... |
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Unregistered(d) |
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I am sorry you not doing good.. is there any chance things may be different come monday with the next ultrasound?
denise |
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trailblazer65 |
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I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this...the same happened to me...The first m/c, I found out the baby didn't have a heart beat on my first prenatal appt. The second m/c, I had very very light red streaks, went to the dr. and found I had a blighted ovum..
My heart goes out to you and your DH. It's just so sad. I don't think I'll ever forget about the babes that I lost. (((HUGS))) Mel |
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beth7919 |
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i am so sorry..i have suffered three losses..and i thought for sure this third pregnancy was going to be it! i bought a pair of maternity pants..since i was not fitting into my clothes..i was on progestrone..everything was different! then we went for an ultrasound on march 17..they thought i was one week behind where i was supposed to be..so then i went back one week later..and the baby didnt' grow..so i had a d&c the next day..
it is so hard to deal with! and having mutliple losses is harder then ever.. but in time the pain will get easier.. Beth (25)
Chris (27) married 9-4-03 m/c 8-22-03 #1 m/c 10-3-03 #2 m/c 3-25-04 (d&c) #3 (baby girl-chromosome disorder) |
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Thisonetyme |
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I'm sorry to hear that things aren't looking so great right now. (Keep hope though for Monday, miracles do happen!) You sound like you're in a good state of mind though, which of course is important and of course we are here to listen when you need to vent, laugh, cry, scream, etc. etc. Everyone here is so supportive and have been through the sames emotions, etc. Try to hang in there and let us know how things go!
Tammy 27
DH 27 DS 6 1st MC @ 7 weeks 4/7/03 2nd MC(missed),D&C @ 11 weeks 3/31/04 |
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Hello. Just wanted to say that I am sorry that you are going through this. I have had two losses myself and thought I was going to lose my daughter three years ago. Started spotting and things were looking really bleak. Well, she was fine and she is a healthy girl turning 4 in July. I will be thinking of you on Monday.
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foxwoodfaerie |
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I am sorry you are going through this. Please keep some hope for Monday. Just know we are all here for you to cry and vent to all you need.
Maybe if you find out it's bad news on Monday you can contact the site you ordered those clothes from and ask them not to ship them. They should understand. I just think it would be heartbreaking to recieve maternity and baby clothes so soon. Ruth |
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animalprint4me |
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Platinum Member ![]() Over 30,000 posts !!! Oldtimer ![]() Posts: 33344 05/01/2004 8:59 AM Crazy Cat Lady!
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Im so sorry your going thru this. Hope all goes well on mon. & if not I agree w/ Ruth contact those websites & ask them not to ship the cloths. I will be thinking about you & will say a
... We're all here if you need ~Nise ![]() ![]() My Lil' Man ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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laurasuz |
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Thank you all for your support - I really do appreciate it!
I am keeping guarded hope for Monday ...I am hoping for the best, but expecting the worst. My bleeding has completely stopped and I was pretty queasy all day yesterday. That doesn't really mean a whole lot though - blighted ovums give you the same symptoms as a normal pregnancy. I suppose what I am saying is that at least I haven't bled like mad and the symptoms continue. Ugh. As far as the clothing go ...can't cancel the order. The best I can do is receive it and return it to a local store (I got some great deals, maybe I should just keep them?!) Can you tell I'm a shopper? I'll be fine with it - I have a trunk full of maternity and baby clothing already. I have been saving stuff for two years now. In fact, I was going through it the other day and had to giggle ...I found the outfit that I brought my dd home from the hospital in (she's almost 15 now) I was so sure that I was having a boy that I got this little blue and white striped outfit from Hanna Andersen (their stuff is great) for the .5 mile trip home from the hospital I was so sure that it was a boy, but I had a girl and I wouldn't have changed a thing. Hmm, I suppose my point here is that we never know what we're going to get or not get. Maybe I'll be lucky and have a reason for those great clothes sooner than later, who knows? I would be bummed if I got rid of them only to wish I hadn't in a few months ...I mean, how many pea coats do you ever find for 14.99 from the Gap? As far as the loss - it's no picnic. I am sad, angry, disappointed, teary, cranky, the list goes on. I have my up moments, like now, and my down ones, like my first posting above. I need to prepare myself to the best of my ability for the worst on Monday. Should the news be bad, I will wait until I get home from the doctor's office and I will scream like a banshee into my pillow. I will cry so hard that my eyes will be nearly swollen shut. My nose will be so clogged from crying that even blowing it won't help. My head will pound. I'll feel cheated. I'll feel that it was partly my fault for the medication that I have to take. I won't feel like leaving my house and when I do I'll feel jealous of every pregnant woman that I see. There will be no words that make me feel completely better, but for those who are experiencing this sort of loss, I can say to them "I can relate" and perhaps offer the same support that you all have given me. It is a very difficult experience that truly can't be understood by those who haven't been through it. It is a terrible learning experience that has made me more compassionate toward others who have loved and lost. From previous experience, I know that in time, I will better accept what has happened and it won't be such a stabbing pain. If for some reason I am wrong in what I predict Monday's news to be, I will be all the more appreciative of the baby that I thought was gone. I will celebrate with great relief and then continue to worry about every twinge. I'll continue to worry about the baby until that baby is no longer a baby and I am long gone. I'll be happy to worry. Thank you all for your kind words, support and encouragment. I am so thankful to have a group to turn to who can relate to me.
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AmyLourene |
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I'm so sorry that you have to go through this again. I know how hard it is when you are crushed after thinking things are going just fine. I had a missed abortion, not a blighted ovum, and my pregnancy symptoms were there up until after I found out the baby's heart had stopped at 8 weeks and 5 days. You are definitely not alone. I agree that it does totally suck, but don't give up....you'll get your happy ending. Amy |
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animalprint4me |
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Platinum Member ![]() Over 30,000 posts !!! Oldtimer ![]() Posts: 33344 05/02/2004 3:27 PM Crazy Cat Lady!
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~Nise ![]() ![]() My Lil' Man ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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Sorry to hear that you are going through this. Please let us know how things turn out for you tomorrow. Did they do blood tests at all yet...to check your hcg levels?? If they are going up...that would be good sign then, right?? I had a blighted ovum in Feb and I remember them taking a lot of blood from me...checking the levels. (my af is so irreg that it was hard for the dr. to know exactly how far along I was). I wish you the best...and I will be sure to check tomorrow on how you are doing. I will be
for you and your family.Mags |
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laurasuz |
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Thank you!
Yes, my levels were doing great, nearly tripled in three days. My doctor doesn't want to check my levels anymore, she feels that ultrasound is a more reliable indicator of a viable pregnancy. hCG levels are strange sometimes! |
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Laura,
Just wanted to compliment you on your email.. very well put words and your right others don't understand unless they go through it also.. I am glad for this board .. I wish I knew about it with previous m/c... but glad I am here now. What happens now? you stated your HCG levels tripled?? do you go for more tests... denise m/c #8 4/19/04 |
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laurasuz |
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Phew! We got a heartbeat!!!
And guess what?! I this morning! Who ever thought I could be so happy about tossing my cookies?!Thanks so much ladies for your kind words and unconditional support - you really have helped me.... Let's keep in touch? |
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imshmoopie |
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great news My Angels Watching Over Me #1 MC @ 10 weeks 8/2001 #2 MC @ 6 weeks 2/2002 #3 MC @ 11 weeks 11/2002 #4 MC, McKenzie Grace @ 19 weeks 7/27/2003 TTC, Praying To Bring One Home |
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Unregistered(d) |
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Laura,
I am sooooo glad you were able to see a h/b. I had faith because the same thing happened to me. I had a bad car accident at 5 weeks, when I went in for my 7wk u/s (at the RE's no less...you would think they would have up tp date, good equipment) the doctor called me into an exam room and told me it was a blighted ovum. He said we could schedule a "procedure" right then, or I could come back in two weeks, though he was SURE there was nothing there. I went to my PCP, and asked her to order a u/s for me. We went to the local hospital for it, and there she was, heart beating and all...we even got to hear the h/b. It gets even worse.... A few days later I had a pulmonary embolism (a blood clot to the lung) I was in the hospital for 10 days. Two days after I got home... I had massive hemmoraghing (SP?) I was rushed to the hopital, where I was told it was a m/c. I went to the high risk OB the next day, they did an u/s and there she was, again!!!! My precious little girl will be 2 months old tomorrow. I wish you luck, health and happiness with this pregnancy. julie |
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laurasuz |
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Oh my gosh! I had a car accident at 5 weeks too!!!
Did you sue? |
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