on wednesday i had my 2nd prenatal visit which he was supposed to hear the heartbeat. he looked for it for quite a while and couldn't find it so he did an ultrasound. the baby wasn't moving and had no heartbeat. my baby stopped growing at 7 weeks and 5 days. this is so sad. im so depressed. i cant help but think its my fault even though i tried to do everything i was suppose to. i remember that at 7 weeks and 6 days i had awful cramping but it felt like my stomach and it made me have diarhea so i just thought my stomach was upset. i guess maybe it was the baby leaving...but i never had any bleeding and the only cramping was that day. i wish i would have had some kind of single before that way i woulndt of been in complete shock. yesterday i had a D&C. they took my baby from me. this has just been an awful week and will continue to be awful for quite a while. i take everything to heart and i dont if i can feel the same again. when i got home from the d&c i about fainted..i guess b/c of all the drugs they gave me. well i guess im going to go cry some more...
Krystle & Clay
Married 10/15/02
Married 10/15/02






