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I feel like I am behind everybody else .... but at the same time
I feel like a BIG huddle is out of the way & now ' let the waiting begin.'

w/ the facilitor we signed w/ all that was needed upfront
was a completed contract, application, and first down payment........
& THE SEARCH BEGINS...............................
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Well when Dh mailed in the paperwork he was at work
& Mr. Strong & in control... who take things as they come confessed to me........
yesterday for the first time he' felt nervous' mailing in the application all the sudden everything felt so real to him.

Finally! ..........I'm like join the club...

With every step we take I've been having dreams of what our baby will be like,
how I'll answer his/her questions growing up; if I'll be a good mom;
what memories he/ or she will remember-
if I'll be known as the 'cool' mom.
If I'll be fortunate enough to have a baby that cares about family
and loves feircely,
values life, & doesn't 'appear' to come from the 'me' generation... has loving friends
& makes a positive difference in the world......
sometimes you can do everything right ... & things still work out wrong what if he /she just has bad genes ....
for lack of a better analogy you can't make soufle out of jello.......

My head races with thoughts sometimes.... It's not like a sweater you can't return & say ... 'uh this is the wrong fit' ......
it's just exciting & scarey. I think my dh is finally there! & it's great...
not that he's scared but excited .......... I've been there for weeks. ....aaaaaaaah

Hopefully I didn't offend anyone if I did I mean no disrespect
these are all the questions that swim through my mind & believe it or not
they'd still be there If we were pregnant.....
I think they're just magnified cuz we're adopting if that makes any sense.

thanx for listening a g a i n. flower

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DH is too funny but I must say... FINALLY

DH is too funny but I must say... FINALLY