I have always stayed somewhat in touch with ConceptionStore, this place has been like my lifeline when I had my 2 m/c's and I had developed online friendships with ladies here.
So it seems to me to be rather appropriate that I update my TTC status.
I found out in September during my yearly pap test I had a cyst that was pressing against my uterine wall. So I was referred to a gynecologist by my family doctor. Now, I didn't think to much of it, as I never was in any pain or discomfort and didn't even know it was there. I see my new gynecologist in November and he (a lovely man) advises me that that cyst is about 3cm in length. :0 I wanted to fall down. So before he completes his exam, he does my internal and says your uterus is twice the size it should be! I look at him and say what are you telling me? He says I think you have a fibroid... and I want you to have an ultrasound and because I do not remove the type of cyst you have, you are going to have to see a urologist for that.
Lovely, I think to myself. So moving along to December 17, 2010 and I have my ultrasound, it seems I have a 7.5 cm 
: fibroid and the cyst can also be seen. Well now that I wasn't able to conceive any longer without having an IVF and now I have this fibroid and cyst. I am left in utter disbelief as I have no idea really what my options are.
: fibroid and the cyst can also be seen. Well now that I wasn't able to conceive any longer without having an IVF and now I have this fibroid and cyst. I am left in utter disbelief as I have no idea really what my options are.So back to the family doctor I went, and he and I had a very good heart to heart. Because I am recently diagnosed Bi-Polar and my mood swings have been horrid around my period combined with the Bi-Polar, he is recommending I have a complete hysterectomy. I said what about a Uterine ambolisation (spelling) it is a procedure where they go through the femoral artery (same as for those that have a heart attack) and they would inject some medication that cuts off the blood supply to the fibroid and the fibroid would die right away. So I thought, great, I will perhaps go with that, but he says no, that due to the size of my fibroid it is best to remove it abdominally and because there is a history of ovarian cancer in my family (my sister had it), he is also wanting me to advise my gynecologist as soon as I see him because that affects what I have done.
So I am scheduled for January 10, 2011 to see my gynecologist to discuss having a full hysterectomy and apparently I still have to see the urologist on the 14th of January for a consult regarding the cyst. I'm hoping that ONE doctor can do both procedures.
I know this means the end of my TTC'ing journey, and although I was incredibly overwhelmed when I learned all of this, I have started to come to terms with this. I may not have been a birth mother, but I have been a step mother, guardian, foster mom, fur mom, aunt, step-grandmother and that is a lot to be greatful for.
So if you could keep me in your thoughts and prayers it would be greatly appreciated. I am on Facebook for those that remember me, and we had lost touch.
Thanks,
Sharon
